I don’t like surprises. I don’t like to wait. I am completely impatient when it comes to things that involve my family, my career, my faith and my future. I believe it might be another one of “those things” that God has decided to point out for me to work through. I avoided it as long as I could and now the process is a bit uncomfortable.
Six months ago, I was informed of “the opportunity of a lifetime” with my employer. After much prayer, discernment and seeking of Godly council, I put my hat in the running. The interview process took months to begin and completed about 3 weeks ago. All along I have been told “you’re our guy”, “you’re the leading candidate”, “the position is as good as yours” and still we wait. For 6 months, I have lived my life wrapped around two scenarios. There’s the “if I get that position” and the “if I don’t get that position” paths. To be honest, I am about to lose what’s left of my mind.
Then I open God’s word to find the following:
“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope” (Psalm 130:5)
So what in “his word” should I put my hope in?
“For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jeremiah 29:11)
While I surrendered this process and the decision to the Lord before I ever set foot in an interview, I didn’t give him the time. I gave him the decision, but not the proper time it may require to make it. I know he knows what’s best for me. Now I must trust HIS time table and not mine. Even if that means I have to….wait.
I’ve been in your situation before so I know how it feels and what it’s like, I’ll be praying for you.
I had a huge “wait” problem that lasted 10 years! I’m not saying that’s how long it will take you. I pray that you get the answer soon!! But in the course of my years of waiting, I developed patience, character, compassion for others, learning about success and failure and what it really meant. I never thought the dark cloud would disappear. And then one day…the sun beamed. God is faithful and would I do it differently? Yes, most definitely. I would have depended on Him in the first place! Hang in there!
This is another great post. We were thinking along the same lines. Read my post on “God Is Not Answering My Prayer”.
Blessings,
Ronda
I too have been noticing lately just how impatient I am. My blog is one of the fundamental signs – it’s all about wanting to see results and see them NOW. haha. Whew, patience is a highly difficult trait to develop!
I can very much relate! I too, have a wait problem. I think the heart of it is that we are achievers — which means, we want to achieve everything we can for ourselves, our family, and everybody else we love. So if I can do it all now, I would just do it.
That verse in Psalms you gave was great! I’ll remember it in my impatience and know that I have hope in the Word.
I also love what you said: “Now I must trust HIS time table and not mine.” It’s just so true.
And all God’s people said… AMEN! Some of those people have mentioned I should look at going to seminary… they need to SHUT UP! :^)
Wow, Aaron. I am very much in the same boat. It’s so hard to wait for His timing. Even knowing that everything is in His hands and that it will all work out for His greater plan doesn’t assure you that this won’t be one of those painful sufferings that help us grow or develop greater reliance on Him. I feel for you and will pray that it works out.